Wow. Much has happened since I last blogged on here. I almost completely forgot about it, if it weren't for Aenon. :)
Well, I'll just put down what I've written lately. It's not much, but it's a work in progress - has to do with the new Catholic thing. :) (Like I said, a LOT has happened.)
Just some thoughts and reflections of the heart on this, my journey of freedom.
I am compelled.
I have never been so compelled in my life. I am drawn in an indescribable way – truly desirous of this new found home. Home. A sweet safety of beliefs and doctrines. A wonderful atmosphere of gently convicting truth. THIS is home.
A devotion fosters within me that I cannot express fully. A love, a passion, a burning for this special place and what is contained inside it, that is especially made for me, as it is for all.
Truth – untamed, blatant, piercing unto marrow and joints. How I love the truth! How I long for it to be preached from the mountaintops and in the valley, on the street and in the country. O, that I could share the truth with everyone everywhere. Such truth is found here in this home.
Help. Help beyond comprehension is found here in this home. A help unknown to me for so long is here! A vat - as I have described it before - of help is made available to the faithful here on earth. To be able to seek the help of those who have gone before us, who have experienced what we are experiencing, who have fought the good fight and finished the race and are face to face with the Father – what a true joy and wonder! How I have lived and prayed before without this vast team of prayer warriors in heaven I do not know.
I cannot – with the knowledge and truth I now have – turn aside or go back from whence I came. I must go forth into the glorious light, I must run with abandon of expectation and doubt into the wondrous Presence of my King, ever present, ever glorified.
No amount of sway could keep me back. No threat of dissolution or disunity. Love of truth must outweigh love of unity, though they both be great, truth must prevail for it is the most important. Without truth there is only sand.
Filled are the voids and holes of uncertainty. “How do I obtain grace?!?!??”, my soul screamed for years. And now, at last!, I have found the answer. At last - to my soul’s great relief and gratitude. The answer has been here all along, just in another place. How sweet is the knowledge, the assurance of grace given, the authority now received to overcome my sins.
That's all for now - more will come later I'm sure. :)
